It's not just 3 words...

On and off, there is this unshakeable (unshakable?) feel of loneliness.
I dunno why.
I dislike to be ignore neither do I like being in attention at all times.
I dislike to be apart neither do I like being together twenty four,seven.

I guess I just need more life and self motivation to kiss kick my ass!
I love people like Jules, Jade, Ming, Fyn and so on.

I aint dragging my feet to work every day but I am dragging my body leave the bed every morning.
I aint sulking whenever I work but I am not smiling whenever the day ends, not because I am not happy that work ends but more like there's nothing to be happy about either.

Sherlyn asked me on our way home today that if I have the gold, what would I pick up?
Ashley took salsa dancing lately.

I thought of my French lessons, my gym classes.
But I told her it was photography.
Yes...I love taking photos, be a narcissist!
I need good potraits that shallow strangers and I reckon to make me feel that I am good enough, nice looking enough.
And I know that aint important and extremely superficial but I need some recognition somewhere,somehow.

Recognition?
Is that what I need as I just figured?
I guess that is fairly important somehow, quite suddenly.
I think I craved for recognition since young cos' no matter how good I think I am,proven by facts or not,recognition for who I am, what I did is never enough to make me feel justified!

So is that important?
I guess I will have an answer someday,one day.

My dad now thinks I need some vitamins.(as well)

I guess that will do.
I shall get some Vitamin C tomorrow.
Or should I just get a multi-vitamin?
Multi vitamin = All the vitamins combined?

Feel sick today.
Flu.
Headache.
ZzZ.
Swelling eye lids!

I hate it when I dont look good.